Thursday, May 7, 2009 @ 9:29 AM
i dont want to blog much , i dont want to blog but im just too fuckedup and swallowing down alot of things that i finally couldnt tolerate anymore . yes my title is unfair-ness , everything seems to be against me , first , i lost something i could have it if im not a foreigner we could meet at the same time , things could change yet .. 2nd i lost the chance of playing c-div cos of my age yes JUST COS IM A FOREIGNER .. & yes of cos theres this 2more other reasons i dont feel like saying this is a life of reality , a world of unfair , and i want to thank this particular someone for letting me to spam her msn like fucktard and reply me with a lovely msg on notepad , thnks girlfriend sandra tan , i love you <3 & the idiot im talking to now , never fails to let me rant like an idiot when she is actually feeling low too , great thnks big fat pig (: & joyce sweetheart.however guys , though you all tried to cheer me and tried to give advice im still feeling rather low ... unfairunfairunfair .. i dnt know what to do , to be happy or to be sad , in school , at home, msn , im like differnt person . i tried to be happy and hyper , cheering ppl up but in th end im left all along in th night , crying like a fcuktard , swallowing down everything ..
it seems like i've got this feeling , feeling and wanting to cry out loud yet not a single tears dropping but i myself was ranting like a idiot to myself .. i dont know what to do , what to be , who to be , when to be real, when to be fake , when to be myself , when t be hyper , when to smile , when to laugh .. i lost all the meaning i just feel like .. i dont know i myself dont even know ! i dont even knows what i want now ! what im now ...
i've got this thinking , giving up everything and be back to the past , HAHAHAH ! do i have a choice ? im stuck IN BETWEEN , S-T-U-C-K. if i gone back to the past definitely lots will leave me , sure cos human are realistic they nv knows why ppl will do things they dont like when they dont even know how much the person themselves had actually felt to come to this stage of -GIVING UP - so now all i knw is , i dont even knw myself , what i could be in th nxt min , happy ?sad ? who is chai pei en ? maybe i shld just stfu and let them have peace , i shldnt be so noisy , i will back to bloggin once i get my decision done . yes blog let me felt relieve , if i could have someone , just one is enough to talk to i wont even bother abt this blog -.-
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