Wednesday, June 17, 2009 @ 9:49 AM
It ended .Is easy to be said than done ,
promises are meant to be broken , you may not remember but i remember every single of it.
every ans of yours for my questions now theres only one word to describe all this ,
R-U-B-B-I-S-H .
Today i walked tt exactly road home on my own ,
i teared on and on , i asked myself why all this happens ,
now i knw ,
it all came too sudden ,
is my wrong to have accept you and started it ,
im too dumb ,
to entrust you my heart ,
you werent th first , i waited for 1whole damn yr , it was so tough down th road ,
i forgotten , half healed & i thought you could let me believe love once again .
However , im just too naive to actually believe tt ,
good things dont lasts and now you took my heart away , split it back to me ,
turned your back against me , how great ...
dumping ppl seems fun ? no more ,
Thnks for the past ,
thnks to both you-knw-yourself , i learnt strong ,
i learnt tt love is just nothing ,
i shldnt have believed , god damn it ,
how can i be a lucky star ? HA-HA-HA .
no more lucky star ,
no more lucky night ,
no more lucky colour ,
no more unique ,
im just me , th one who dont deserved all this ,
i asked myself over and over again , what i did to deserve all this ?
" hmm , shldnt be bah " sounds familiar eh ?
is okay , is over , ended , im just too naive ,
i hardened my heart , since you turned your back against me ,
i'll do that too , you dont have to say any sorry ,
cos im totally wrong to have start it in th begining .
Im erasing you off ,
i will be a strong person from now on ,
no more such nonsense gna happen ,
all along with tt thinking , simple is the best ,
loving ppl truthfully determined , things will go on ,
now is no longer this way , i will learn , learn to be someone heartless & strong .
Not gna be a dumbdumb anymore , is enough , and time to wake up .
thnks for turning me into someone like this , if i knew it would have today ,
on tt exactly day i would have reply you ,
" yes i think i will find tt person playing me "
i may be tearing lik eone idiot over here ,
you ? HA-HA-HA , i guess you dont even care ,
so whats th point ? POINTLESS .
Im glad we only come this far 9days of r/s
12days of knowing each other -.- nice number though .
thnks for all the foot prints left in my life , parts and parcels ,
9days of happiness ,honestly these are the most happy days i ever had in my whole lifetime
for th first someone who called me as lucky star ,
unique , giving me all the happiness i had never thought of ,
doting on me , caring for me .
& the rainbow straws .
& i almost missed out , thnks for th recommendations of dark chocolate ,
through you i learnt tt it could be tt nice actually , bitter things could be tt delicious too
all these reminds me of you , still im glad to once have you by my side ,
holding on to my hands , one i once thought i could rely on ,
your shoulders will gna be one of th thing tt i'll be missing
th stands of your bike will be th 2nd , you know i love dou-feng ,
sorry to have wasted tt money of yours , save it for your nxt .
&those days of savings , seems to be useless now . . .
i seriously really wants to buy tt watch for you but somehow ,
even i've bought it , it would be meaningless already .
1 , 3 , 6 ,1 on and on ?
let it be on other girls , im not tt fortunate enough .
& i nv gna forget th one who recommend me ramen ten though i still dno wats tt ,
th one who keep calling me ben ben but ownself is a dumbo giraffe ,
& the one who accompanied me chat in th msn , for me to complain how hungry i am ,
till 5am in th morning ,
the one who can dozed off in a chat
the one who act to have dozed off just to avoid telling me her secret
th one who slacked with me for mahjong session till morning 8am plus ,
th one who i've strongly affected her sleeping time ,
th one whose air-con spoiled early in th morning ,
th one who hates heat ,
th one who i cried for just becos i find her ke-lian
th one who i become dumb-er after i met ,
th one who will be at fault for everything
th one whom i find it super weirdo and special ,
th one who has super siao & tyco high eq and iq
th one who help me picked all th bean sprout out early in th morning ,
th one who is so tired and deprived of sleeps still wakes up early in th morning to go sentosa to meet me and late for first date
th one who use a super nice smell wax
th one whom teach me how to PLAY A SHOP
the one whom i thought finally had found to be able to accompany me watch horror movies
th one who can say my hair is okay when is like BROOM
th one who give me 3/4 of her hor-fun and eat 1/4 of it ,
th one who will vomits after eating when sick ,
th one i seriously hopes to look after when she is sick
th one i once wanted to cook a meal for her
th one who makes me lovesick
th one who makes me cry 1 damn whole hr on bus 80 , listening "you make me wna " for 1hr and miss like hell , first ever person .
th one who makes me so in love with english songs ,
th one who makes me feel like getting the mini ipod from HSBC ,
& my one and only ipod stands .
th one who always tease me with my english names recently ,
the one who has fear of kids ,
the one who i seriously thinks can sleeps like a pig ,
the one whom i finally found to love doraemon like ME
the one and the one and still the one , so many more left to be said. . .
& yes , the one , i loved th most now ,
the one i have to forget now ,
the one , only one , last time of sayings it may not meant anything anymore to you , but still ,
i love you .
After all this , thnks heaven for pulling my leg not once but twice and THRICE .
i knew im one who dont deserves all this , i knew ,
it was just a dream , no more believes ,
asking myself one after another time ,
why must the person i love leave me just like this ,
they used to treat me so well , let me indulged so much in them ,
& i've got my ans ,
im just too dumb , too soft , too weak , too simple minded .
Life still has to moves on & my motivations for trainings are back .
& i feel like moving two of th metal bench available at my hse downstairs to somewhere else-.-
zzz .
friends im fine , thnks for being there for me ,
esp tomansi , wongshuqing , joyce lim , yang huiyee (:
till here , byes .
so much to say , so lazy to type and IM SUPER HUNGRY AGAIN
zzz cos I FORGET TO TAKE MY DINNER !
DAMN IT !
edited.
& dont say this post is long , cos my livejournal one is longer ,
is 6.04am now ,im still not falling asleep yet .
imissyou , i really do ,
tell me how am i gng to stand up once again , re-starting everything again ?
i had alr re-started till you came to my life it re-started for th 2nd time ,
now it had to be re-started one more time ,
i really only has 1 heart , jus 1 , one heart beating is really only 1 ,
teach me anyone ? how am i going to stand up once again ?
chaipeien is no longer tt hyper anymore ,
time ? yes time.. how long again this time round ?
th previous took 1yr , this time ?
2yr ? .. no more ,
i fucking swear i wont fall anymore , no more . is enough .
i hardened my heart and is locked , leave me alone ,
i've to be alone , i need space and time now ,
please schl please reopen soon , i wna get occupied ,
im suffering , is worst than dying, fuck it .
i've nth more to say , im still waiting for myself to feel sleepy ,
to feel collasping , to felt totally asleep , im tired but i cant sleep ,
im stil waiting , waiting for th sun to rise , for my body to total brk down into dreams ,
i hope is a sweat one but dreams and reality is always different right ?
yea , i know . is over , is gone . goodbye , farewell .
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