Friday, July 17, 2009 @ 9:38 AM
I've many to say on today's post , get ready is a wordy and long post. Shall skip the school part , simply felt so energetic today . Training was killer ! But i think im rather good already compared to shuqing and guys.Seeing coach training their speed pumping up their layups/shootings percentage , i find myself is so low in standard. Been running on and on for today's training , the moment i reach 260 after riding bike to rp with sq to pump air into our tyre my legs starts to nua and then my thigh cramp-ed & my ankle was totally . . . i dont knw what to say , i think is really time for me to visit the sin-seh but i dont feel like -.- I find myself so weak , lil things i already cramp & i didnt even undergo super hard training for months/ tornaments i totally no idea why my ankles and knee cap is hurting is like so freaking unreasonable and pissing me off .
Being one who has been wishing to improve and always like physical training , how i wish coach will train me like train the others , the speed/stamina all these yet unluckily i wasnt one of them . Seriously June Holidays has been a total waste , yes a waste . i've spent so much time on uneccessary things get myself turned into like a clown a piece of shit . In fact , i didnt even improve.
From sec1 , being nickname as butter finger then i learned to catch a ball properly , layups , lan-ban moves , qie ban , such and such . From one who dont even knows how to shoot , at least now can shoot 2point and trying to shoot 3point .From one who dont dare to cut in and couldnt even do a proper layup im now somehow somewhat daring to cut thru and layups properly .I seriously think i've a retarded brain , i've no idea why my reaction is always so slow yes SLOW and timing is always WRONG . 1&1/2 yrs plus since i start bballing i asked myself the standard now isit what i want ? it wasnt . My standard /percentage always dont stays. It could suddenly goes up and then down all the way , everytime my ball or shld i say often , yea often , whenever i shoot a ball / layups & cut thru ppl , though now im daring to do that but everytime "tyco" this words always never fails to comes into my ear which I DETEST , i DISLIKE , im SICK of it. One day , how i wish i could get rid of this word. I dont wna be a tyco basketballer . This wasnt what i want.
I want speed , stamina , percentage , skill . I know all these needs time and patience but whats troubling me is my studies and these. I must get all this by this yr , i must. I must not drop to NA i must catch up in studies , 9weeks more to EOY , how am i going to recap all the syllabus for this whole yr , worst of all , my sec 1's base is also not strong enough . BULLSHIT. i've wasted so much time , 1yr and half been a sucker. All these stress , seriously is enough to tire me out totally and i couldnt be bothered by the rest of the things anymore . This week had been a busy week for me , studying and staying back in school solid 4hours of studies , homeworking all these , is been a fruitful week i can say . I need patience for all my aims but at the mean time i know actions speak louder than words and i strongly agree words are just bullshit , is really time for me to start now , just now i was too random when staying back at 260 after lights off to ball , i sprint and slow jog JUST 10 LAPS OF FULLCOURT , im dead beat . It shouldnt be this way .
And just this weekeneds i've so much things to do esp D&T work product , reflections writeup , cutting of the wire gauz ? err i dont knw how to spell that. Follow by monday standardise test , i cant fail , i've to pass no matter what . If i fail it will once again pull down my CA2 marks, not only that tgt with others subjects' homeworks , 2days , 48hours so much to do , so lil time , either now or never & this is what i always strongly believes , time waits for nobody . Alright i just needs some rantings , but i ought to be glad im not those o'lvl students shldnt i ? haha. but one day i will be , so now is just a boundary i got to overcome i think . Is gonna be sucha disgrace for someone whose PSLE aggregate scores 222 , 2nd express classes to drop to NA , if im able to stay in express stream i swear im satisfied already . I hate myself for poor time management and esp when i always knows how to tell myself to improve yet i didnt do anything to it , i may have but i always do it the wrong way , idk why either.
Wasted 2yrs in bball , last yr i could have played/shld have played for c-div yet i didnt cos i was so noob that time dont even knw how to catch ball , then this yr i cnat play for c-div cos my age , yes i know i've next yr and next nxt yr but experiences is the maine. 1yr is not short , is been a waste . And even now for milo cup there have been so many backing out , how to play ? Is been a tiring yr for me this yr like A-G-A-I-N though it passes kinda fast.
HAIS . i guess is enough for rant. Been saying so much if i still dont motivate myself i seriously find myself dont fit to be a basketballer dont fit to be no.12 dont fit to be in th team . I wants to be a basketballer like what coach said. & Lastly , i dont wna just be a STREET-BASKETBALLER , i wants to be a TEAM-PLAYER . i love team spirit . Just how long more then i could sense this spirit on court myself experiencing the synchronisations of play ? next year ? hopefully . . . now , what ms-teo said to me those words are appearing in my mind , i felt so . . . Whatever , theres nothing i could do about it , this life is never fair. Fuck man.
Anyway for now , all the best for c-div girls match against SCGS alright though we've been in a somehow tough situations but i know you guys can do it alright . GOGOOGO(:
Im tired i need some sleeps and i just noticed i've been wearing the wrong side for my contact lenses and no wonder today when i was riding bike to school and jus now back from 260 my vision is somehow blurred. lols.
Nights ppl , sleeps well(:
&& woah , who managed to read this whole post finish ? HAHA.
i didnt expected myself to post so long too , for those we read it all , claps* for you .
& i seriously thinks joyce lim will not read it cos she sure gna find it TOO long and wordy right?!
HAHAH.
Anw , i know is random but sunday 19/7 will be me & her's 1yr 5mths sweethearts-ship
HAHA , new words i created again , happy 1yr 5mths in advance !
Loveyou plenty =D=D=D
说那么多也没什么意思， 何必费尽唇舌，我已经累了。
我想我也不许要这样糟蹋自己为了一个已经不爱自己的人了。
不应该，不需要。
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