Monday, November 9, 2009 @ 7:06 AM
I spent half of my day rotting in sbc watching matches but i think is more like crapping arnd . The moment we got down the bus , it starts to drizzle and before we get in "bom" there goes the rain falling on us and among the 6of us im the worst even till now i just reached home , my shirt is nt fully dry .
Working at 9am , meeting at 7am , waking up at 6am tmrw , nights ppl .
& yes this is life.
The reality of the difference in 1yr is hitting me again and again , so does today .
think about it , i dont have much time im already 15 but look what m i doing now im still not even half of the standard i ought to be . Worst of all , coach mentioned something today , is not qualified for B-div when a person is 17 . 1yr after nxt yr i'll be 17th wheareas the rest will be 16 & so it means i cant play again . hahaha , what a joke . out of a sudden , i felt so loserish , yes loserish . Passion ? So what , this is just how cruel reality is . fuck . can i say anything ? can i do anything ? no i cant except from ranting here right now but does it make any changes ? NO. things are getting more n more out of hand , im getting more and more temperamental and my patience is getting more and more limited . i dontknw how long i can hang on anymore , i . r.e.a.l.l.y.d.o.n.t.k.n.w.
&my lappy is still not yet alright, i dont even have the time , training , work ,work , work , training , fuck .
i think im getting more and more vulgar but whatever , i dont care anymore .
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