but i have to , i must !

i suppose my posting will gets lesser and lesser once schl starts .

Is kinda contradicting , im happy that schl starts then i'll be occupied with schl work and dont have to be finding things to do and i hate to be too free . Yet , im sad cuz when i've many work to do i'll get stressed out and i'll grow moreandmore whitehair when im already having alot now ! ):

but this is just life . You just have to either be damn busy stressed yourself out to get your goals or you did nth and no achievements at all and then you'll start regretting when its too late. Sometimes i really hate myself , my mouth seems to be working but not my brain , i said i will do my homework , i gonna do my homework x100 but you see , i've so much undone yet is hard to get your brain , mind , souls working as one cuz imma lazy ass. So now , im back to try get my brain mind souls working as one .

ciaos .