Friday, March 19, 2010 @ 10:05 AM
Yes this gonna be a emo shit post , so yeah .How worst stuffs can be ? Be it at home or outside.
Im tired , really tired. The family burden is getting heavier , since few years back i learnt many things in life , if you want something you either FIGHT for it or you just forget the thought of it . Some kids are richer so obviously some are poorer and obviously i belong to e 2nd category. I fight for what i want , i wanted a new phone and i used my own my money , yes is ok sure i dont mind i dont blame mum just make it that i aint that lucky to have a good daddy , i accepted my fate. Then , my aunt told me i cld have free specs and lens so yeah im glad bcuz mum couldnt afford and the lens i ought to throw by 2weeks in e end i used for 2mths plus but look now , what happen? Complaining saying is too exp when you guys dontknw what exactly is the brand i want , mum told me to call them up personally bcuz she dontknw. I know i shldnt blame mum , i know she dont understand such stuffs afterall she dont use but just so suddenly and is really pressurizing to knw that i've to do this that and yeah it goes on . My homework is piling and to be honest im in e verge of giving up , i know i shldnt but im tired . Im really tired.
I feel like im trying very hard to live in this family , very hard to make mummy's life easier which I REALLY WANTS TO . i know all i need is to score well , study well , get a good job but i cant see the future is so vague . I keep afraid i couldnt do it , i know i shldnt doubt but things r telling me so , trying so hard in mathematics and studies BUT i still get 3 F9s. Im not satisfied obviously i hate this kinda losing feeling when i did something to fight for something that ought to be better . Okay well maybe i didnt try hard enough SO i will but where shld i start off ? How can i ? I need someone to lead me on.
A true friend walks in when the whole world walks out but at this point of time who walks in then ? HAHA in fact im HAVING MORE PROBLEMS. fuck man seriously. Too many to be said and i dontknw how to say it out , it accumulates and this is how this post come from. Im trying so hard to make EVERYTHING in life smooth , TRYING SO HARD TO TOLERATE all this SHIT but look , what exactly am i trying for ? Isit worth ?
NO. fuck life.
maybe i just need to rant it out , for mummy , i still have to hang on.
Bye.
Labels: EVERYTHING AND ALL IS ON ME.
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