Friday, April 9, 2010 @ 11:30 AM
So you mean i deserve to xperience all this at e age of 15th ?Im tired of being strong ,
tired of crying knowing is not gonna help,
tired of wiping my tears away and forcing myself to move on ,
tired of forcing a smile,
tired of escaping e existing problems.
Tired of wearing e happy face mask bcuz im not , at all.
If you were to say that imma burden then what do you think you're to me ? Am i living a life tt a 15year old kid or rather turning 16th yr old teenager shld live ? Xperiencing what i shld ? If you were t see on e surface of everything you wont see e real me . So anw , now at this moment i feel like telling you , YOU are a burden for me INSTEAD. If not for you , i would be enjoying my happy-family life in M'sia , i dont need a father , i really DONT , no point and no difference. I wont be stuck in this room facing e four walls , i could have big houses , big room , no worries on nxt-mth's schl fees . I dont have t worries so much juz bcuz im not e citizen here and i would be stacked with so much stress juz to do better , juz to score well t ensure i can see my futurer here and i can get my PR or SINGAPOREAN citizenship asap so tt i wont've t pay that huge amount of schl fees. These ARE e result of your IRRESPONSIBLE acts , you land me in this state . So you mean i owed you n i deserve this , do i ? I didnt. Step out of my life please or maybe simply juz disappear into thin air however before you do so , please give me some time to thrash every single thing out to you and let you know how much you had let me , mum , this family down & how much you RUINED my life , fucker.
Still , life moves on . After a goodnight sleep tmrw will be a new start to not make my life so tough for myself i juz have t force myself to look on e bright side , no matter what. So now , i juz wanna enter my dreamland , goodnights world . I kept reminding myself t be "happy go lucky " i wish so too . Bye .
at this point of time i felt as if im e only one left in e world , sigh.
Twelve's
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I've the greatest MUMMY on earth♥
“Seek not that the things which happen should happen as you wish; but wish the things which happen to be as they are, and you will have a tranquil flow of life”
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