Wednesday, June 23, 2010 @ 8:01 PM
Sometimes im not good in words , especially when im not in good mood. I dont know how to explain , im lazy to , i hate to. I can be talkative x1000 but seriously to express myself , i doubt im good in it . I hope my love ones could understands me but well maybe im wrong , nobody gonna be able to figure out my weird thinking , i guess . I thought something could be seen , i thought you would understands , but you dont. I do really want to take a break from everything and go back to malaysia for a few days to relax but if only life allows me to . If you wanna tell me to leave my team mate fighting for my team &im right there in m'sia , sorry i cant do that. Unless , i've something important if not , i wont. This holiday aint like a holiday , im really busy but thats not the worst , the worst is to someone that lived with me everyday , not understand how my situation was. Im not that kind of person that will explain a whole lot of shit bcuz i know eventually you not gonna understand it , i dont wanna waste my saliva , i dont see the point. I've to admit i dont have the patience , i get frustrated , to understand me well , you've to know deep down what im thinking , i hate it when people just judge by the surface but well , cant blame them bcuz thats how i present myself and yes, how superficial. Im never easy to be understood , only those who really make an effort to , will understand me . &Sometimes , as time passby im so sick of doing something for someone anymore bcuz it turns out negatively , the person is not gonna appreciate anyway , just bullshit.
In life , many things let me down , many things disappoint me , blame no one but myself for not being able to be smart enough to detect every single thing , to be aware ,so once bitten twice shy.Things leave scars which are causes phobia. To make me believe again , to make me give in , to make me trust , you've to give in more than enough , im not gonna expect anybody will do this bcuz i dont even think anyone would do this so this is why i guess when i grow real old , i'll still be alone on my own . Who knows , life is too unpredictable i think , im someone who never stop changing , indecisive and contradicts. Well , no choice thats me (:
alright , off i go www. Hope i've a nice day ahead , i really definitely gonna miss seniors :(
Ytd night , i reminisced , how i met every single friend that places something in my heart and still , every memories remains so vividly in my mind , hopefully i wont have car accident cuz i really wont bear to forget them! (:
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