Hate the feeling of standing right in the middle of a dark forest , unsure of which direction to go & afraid of
moving on. Afraid of walking the wrong route , taking the wrong step,
fear of falling into a pool of deep shit a.g.a.i.n.
despite how much your heart tell you " that's the way out"
Hate this feeling of uncertainties . In fact , im scared :(
I wanna see clear blue skies , i wanna see rainbows , i wanna be carefree , i want freedom.
Not showing doesnt mean im feeling nothing , i do .
The upcoming stress and how short this term gonna be , just the start of school , things are getting out of hands and i cant cope. Everyone have 24hrs a day i believe if others could , i can too.I've been procrastinating way too much when i ought to be working doubly/thriple hard. Blame no one but myself , time to take out my discipline in work , i know i can do it , i dont give up that easily, i wont , I NEVER !! Im strong ^^
I hope for a better tmrw every single day , hope to see scar fading as time passby.
What you have become is the price you paid to get what you used to want.
-Mignon McLaughlin, The Neurotic's Notebook, 1960
Labels: the grey area.